Life

So I know in a blog you’re supposed to pretty much say what's on your mind. Well on my mind lately has been the topic of life...just life in general the starting of it, the process of how someone’s life plays out, and evens the end. Let's see here so I guess to start at the beginning would be...too far. So I will start at the beginning of my New York adventure.

This is how it begins!!!!!!

So life has a way of taking you down some roads that aren't the best for traveling. It’s when we choose to take the path less traveled that we learn and grow. Well some incidents happened in my life that forced me to realize that I needed to start somewhere where I could find out who I was. So I decided to take it up with Google. I typed "Christian Colleges in the U.S" and hit the search button. This was the listing of Addresses that came up

1. http://www.davisny.edu/

2. http://www.pcci.edu/

3. http://www.wheaton.edu/

4. http://www.crown.edu/

5. http://www.concordia.edu/

This was the top 5 results of my search...what do you see when you type in my search...deferentially not this list. Well I chose the first one on the list and knew music was my aim. I clicked on Davis and found there music program to be kinda eye catching—and their campus very beautiful. This searched happened on June 20, 2009 and by July 17, 2009 I was sitting in Binghamton, NY, some 2000 miles away from my home in Missoula, MT. I WAS SCARED!!!!! At first I lived with a host family that was very kind and generous, but I saw that life would be a lot easier on me if I lived in the dorms. So my mother decided to get me a dorm room. Life started to get easier...sort of. I was hit kinda hard with some depression and homesickness but I guess that was to be expected. Some incidents in September led me to meet an amazing man of God, Andrew Lee Mitzel. Well I ended up falling in love with this man’s heart and his steadfast will to serve God no matter what sacrifices need be made. Life in NY started to get a lot easier. I had someone who would help keep me spiritually accountable but at the same time love me and keep me under his protection. Three months later the start of a new year brings in the continuation of an amazing fellowship with this man. On December 31, 2009 Andrew will be flying into Missoula, Montana to see my side of life. I’m nervous and excited. I choose to embrace the butterflies. Come January 11, 2009 I start the second semester of my freshman year at Davis Bible College and I have never been happier with my life. I love the people God has surrounded me with but I also miss the ones he gave me and allowed me to keep.


So in all this is my life since I have left Missoula, Montana. Coming home and seeing my friends and family has been nice and it has been amazing but I will be glad to get back to school and get back to the everyday life of the "College Student".

Pondered

You never really know what you have in your life till its gone from you for either a short time or forever. You tend to realize how much people mean when there not in your life anymore. Take your parents for instance. We live the first entire half of our lives with them. Than come one day we decided to leave, its during our absence that we realize how much our parents really meant to us. When we loose a loved one weather to death or to the realization of no compatibility you start to remember the things about that person that really made your day and just made you laugh and smile. Some things were not meant to make up the aspects of your life. Those things cause unresolvable conflict. They become the haunting burden you face every time you close your eyes. Coming home and starting the New Year, I want to start over. Remove everything from my life that is burdened and resolve anything that is unresolved. Where forgiveness is asked there shall it be received.

Hurt

Have you ever had a person in your life that ment so much to you that you were willing to take all the trials and all the grief that came with them. Parents know what is best... sometimes. Your heart is your own. Im so tired of people that would much rather ignore their heart to make other shappy and in the end there left with nothing but pain. If you love someone enough that you are willing to spend the rest of your life with them... standing up for them is something that should come natural to you. AGAPE Means love without expecting love in return, but are you really willing to do this. Can you take your love and stand up for it. Cause from my eyes you can't. When people sit there and tell you that your idea or your love is wrong, you should stand up and say hey this is my heart this is my life. It kills me to see when someone in love is scared to the point that they would let someone walk all over the relationship and not say one word... Think about it... what is your love to you. Is it Agape, is it unconditional, or is it lust of the flesh... sometimes I wonder...